Post No. 12: I Hate You/我恨你

Dedicated to all those guys who have their hearts broken in unrequited love:

I Hate You

I hate you
I really hate you
I really hate you to the core

I hate you for not seeing
That beneath my cold stoic exterior
Lies a fragile heart

I hate you for not knowing
That though I don’t admit it
I still think of you & your smile

I hate you for treating
The poems & letters I write for you
As nothing special

I hate you for thinking
That we can remain as ordinary friends
When that’s quite impossible on my part

I hate you for not understanding
That despite my feigned disinterest
I still care about you

I hate you
For having to wish you & him well
Even when it hurts me to know that you & him are together

I hate you
For planting the cursed seed of first love
Years ago into my young heart

I hate myself
For not being able to forget you
Even after so long

24/4/2005
Typed down in a sudden rush of inspiration

致给所有因暗恋无果而心碎的人：

我恨你

我恨你
我真的很恨你
我恨你恨之入骨

我恨你没看到
我那坚强冷漠的外表下
隐藏着个脆弱的心

我恨你不知道
虽我不敢承认
我还会想起你和你的笑容

我恨你
把我写给你的诗与信
当作不值得稀奇的东西

我恨你认为
我们还能继续当普通朋友
你可知道那对我有多困难吗？

我恨你不了解
虽我装作漠不关心
其实我仍在乎你

我恨你
因为我得祝福你和他
虽知道你和他在一起使我心碎

我恨你
把初恋又甜又苦的种子
种入我情窦初开的心

我恨我自己
过了怎么久
竞还没法把你忘掉

灵感突来时所写29/4/2005